"Everyday, the Choices you make. Say what you are and who your heart beats for!"

Lately, I have been feeling extremely exhausted and completely drained. This past week I worked almost 72 hours and that's pretty much the story of my life right now. Working 7 days a week at 2 jobs is exhausting and tiring. Honestly, I feel like my faith and insanity is all but gone. I have been keeping it all together pretty well but today I hit a wall. I just broke down- wanting to give up and crawl into my bed and never get up. So, while Graham was sleeping I just let it all go. I got on my knees before my Lord and gave my burdens to Him. I have been dwelling in the negative and continually been relying on my own strength. The Lord has been tugging at my heart these last couple of weeks and I have been ignoring it- and we all know what happens when we don't give it all to Him- we fail. Its something I am constantly having to remind myself of. I am someone who likes to control things. I am organized and want to know whats going to happen. Surrendering my strength and energy to Him is something I daily have to pray about. I opened my bible and began to think about how the way that I live my life is a testimony of what I believe about God. If believe in Psalm 73:26 ("My flesh and heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.") then I am called to live like that. God has been convicting me about this in all areas of my life. "Do everything without complaining or arguing"- a verse we hear often but something I struggle with so much at home. I ask myself, is my life a living testimony of the Creator of the Universe? Can people obviously see Christ in my life? Am I living a life worthy of the calling? I am blessed to have 2 jobs- there are so many people who are unemployed, so why am I complaining? I desire and I am trying to pursue a relationship like this. An intimate love relationship with my Savior. Not to say that I am never gonna struggle but God is definitely changing me and challenging my faith. He has given me an AMAZING husband who encourages me daily. Always reminding me of how much he loves and appreciates me. He brings so much joy into my life and is always serving me. He is a great reminder and example of God love! Anyways... That's whats been on my heart lately.

"If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all." Isaiah 7:9

11.18.99

"There's a spirit that can ne'er be told..."

Ten years ago a tragedy struck in Aggieland. Twelve Aggies died while putting together the bonfire. We will always remember those who died and will continue to pray for the families and friends of those who lost a loved one. Its definitely times like these that I am proud to be an Aggie. I miss being in College Station and being around so many Aggies. I am very thankful for attending a school like A&M and it will always be close to my heart!

Travel.

Just got home from a weekend with the girls in Branson, MO. It was a great time of fellowship and fun! I went with my mother-in-law, her sisters, grandmother-in-law, and Jonnys cousins! We left Friday afternoon and stayed till Sunday night. It was soo much fun spending time with his family- I adore them! They are precious! We pretty much ate and shopped the whole time :) I probably gained like 10 pounds lol! I was soo proud of myself- I only bought 2 things :) I didn't get any of my Christmas shopping done but I did get some good ideas! We did see a musical Saturday about Christ's birth and it was pretty good. My first musical! I am extremely exhausted from the weekend but it was worth it! Jonny spent the weekend hunting with his dad and brother. Jonny killed a buck and now we have meat! We both had great weekends but definitely are glad to be home again!

I only have to work this week and then I get a week off of work! I am soo excited! Hopefully I will get most of my Christmas shopping done. Saturday, we are having a house warming party @ 12:30 and everyone is invited! We will have tons of food and snacks! We will also be playing any football games on the TV!! Come and go type thing! So you should come :) Thats all for now... Good night!

Fall.

Its finally starting to feel like fall!! Its been beautiful- I love it!! We have completely finished our house- WHOOP! And once we get our Obama money then we can start working on remodeling our kitchen! It is soo nice to just come home and relax and not have a million things to do. Well.. This past weekend was Halloween and for me it was not so exciting. I had to work! Jonny spent the weekend in Louisiana visiting his brother and sister... he went to their costume party (see below). He had fun but I am glad to have him back! So... my weekend was pretty boring and lame- work and no husband! Sunday night was great fun though. Me and JV went to dinner and a movie. We ate some yummy fish at Rockfish and then went and saw Where the Wild Things Are- I LOVED it! Jonny thought it was weird but he had never heard of the book before so I can see where he comes from! It was good spending the night having fun and just being with each other- we don't do it often. Well thats about all for now... Have a great week! God bless!

Verse of the week: "But in all things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loves us."

Update.

Well.. We finally have our feet on the ground. We have been working soo much on our house that I have not been on the internet in soo long. We are pretty much finished with the house- just a few things here and there. We still have work to do in our bedroom and study room but its nice to come home and enjoy things instead of working until we go to bed! For the past few weeks all our lives have consisted of is work and working on the house. And if it weren't for all the people in our lives who helped us out we wouldn't be done. We are soo very blessed and thankful for all our friends and family who have helped us out! Its nice to be almost done. Well here are some pictures of our house and of the sweet boy I nanny (there is more on fb)! Enjoy!

Busy Busy Busy.

So I haven't updated in a little while... Our life has been super crazy/busy these past couple of weeks. We are moved into our house and have almost everything painted. We just have to paint our guest room. Me and Jonny work all day and so when we come home we are exhausted. We work on the house for a few hours and then crash! So the house is coming together really slowly! I usually work all weekend and Jonny has school work to do so its hard to get stuff done then too. Also, I have bible study Tuesday and Wednesday nights. All this to say our time is very limited and we are super busy all the time! BUT we have completely finished our living room and kitchen. The rest of the house is a wreck but it will come together soon. We are so excited about owning our own home and can't wait to build memories here! This past weekend we got to watch some of my moms friends kids. We stayed at their house in Colleyville. They have three kids ages 14, 12, and 8. It was super fun but not much of a relaxing weekend. We did take them to see Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs- it was really cute and they loved it. Other than that we just played video games, board games, and jumped on the trampoline! It was a great weekend. Good to be a kid again!

God has been sooo good to us and we have been really seeing Him work in our marriage. Reminding us daily that He is our provider and that any energy and strength we have comes from above. We are soo very blessed. Thats all I got for now. Its off to bed! Goodnight!

Painting.

We have begun painting our house!! We have moved all our furniture into our garage and started working on our home. We have finished the kitchen and living room. We are starting the hallway and our bedroom tomorrow. Hopefully we will finish painting by the end of this week and move in this weekend! YAY! We are so ready to be in a place of our own. Owning a home is a lot of work and fixing it up is not so easy either. I have learned a few things in the past couple of days:

1. I can't tape

2. I am pretty sure that I am color blind when it comes to wall colors (I can't tell shades of color apart)

3. I am sooo indecisive about EVERYTHING

4. I can't paint without making a mess and getting it everywhere

5. I really can't paint at all

6. I could never be a decorator like my mamma

7. Jonny is pretty handy and very much so a perfectionist about things

8. And peeling off wallpaper SUCKS!!!

I will keep yall updated and post pictures soon!!!